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Summer MOOCs 4: How I Decided I Didn’t Like Programming

Fourth in a series.  First one is here.

In yesterday’s post, I wrote about how the Creative Programming MOOC helped me realize that I really like programming.  To my students, colleagues, and others in my life, this revelation must come as “kind of a duh” (a favorite student phrase from several years ago), as I am the math faculty member who uses computers the most and who is often fiddling with something software-related.

The story I tell myself has been different, however.   Like many stories we tell ourselves, it’s one constructed to avoid pain.   As I start to write today, I am not sure I will be able to keep up my promise of posting something that I write this day, as I feel fear in my gut and grief in my chest, and my instincts to protect myself and keep quiet compete with my desire to share.